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Book 39 … The Wide Wide Sea: The Final Fatal Adventure of Captain James Cook by Hampton Sides, published by Penguin Random House UK in 2024.

My SF reading buddy and I also read non fiction such as explorers journals and accounts. To my mind, the idea of journeys in the sailing ships of yore have a lot in common with the imaginary journeys in the spacecraft of fictional futures. Both seem equally impossible from the point of view of this modern day and age.

The Resolution, Cook’s ship, was about as long as two school-buses parked end to end. Got that from Google’s AI, a useful comparison because who knows what 110 feet 8 inches or even 33.73 meters looks like? A width of approx 35 or 11 meters, so quite a lot wider than a school bus. I don’t know how many decks.

That 110 people, sailors and scientists, stuffed themselves into a ship like the Resolution, along with all their stores, living animals, and gear to repair and and maintain the ship while underway, and make a three-year journey seems almost as impossible as some of the journeys described in science fictional accounts.

Hampton Sides wrote this account seen through an American lens. Gives a completely different flavor than when I read Australian authors writing about Cook’s first two voyages. Americans are very invested in the Captain James Cook of his third voyage from 1776 to 1780, with him killed in February 1779.

Presumably because he died in the Hawaiian Islands, now part of the US, as a result of an altercation with and or misunderstanding by the Native people there. Much is made of Cook’s supposed illness. In comparison to Cook’s fair dealings with his men and with the native people they met during the first two voyages, the worn-down 52 years old captain seemed to be a changed man in his third voyage. Many writers seem to think he had a mental illness though none that I read was game to say what they really suspected. (Altzheimers? Some other breed of dementia?)

The whole story of the third voyage was new to me. I was very hazy on where Cook met his demise, I thought maybe Tahiti. I had no idea he was the first European explorer to see the Hawaiian Archipelago. All in all, an interesting account.

A few facts that stayed with me. Captain Cook’s journeys lost men overboard, falling down the masts from great heights, killed by furious islanders, taken by sharks but he never lost a man to scurvy, a sea-going disease that was a blight of that time. More men lost their health, their teeth, and their lives from scurvy than any other cause except war. But Cook had it nailed. He forced his men to drink lemon juice and eat sauerkraut.

Book 40 … Flinders by Rob Mundle, this edition published by Hachette Australia in 2012.

This is the book I intended to read earlier in the year with Matthew Flinders’ Cat. (Book 10) I learned more about 18th century sailing in this book. The author, Rob Mundle, is a sailor himself, and also can phrase the technical detail of sailing in the past in words that a landlubber can understand. Another excellent feature is the glossary. Lol, finally learned what ‘belay that thar rope!’ means.

I thoroughly enjoyed reading about the circumnavigation of Australia, and Flinders’s other explorations from 1791 to about 1803. Interestingly, Flinders and his crews suffered from scurvy and this despite that his hero, Captain James Cook, had worked out the preventative 20 years before. I can only suspect that neither lemons nor sauerkraut were available where he took on stores.

Afterwards is when a world of bad luck hit the man. He was shipwrecked, and when finally on his way back to England to his wife, was imprisoned by the French on Mauritius for six years. He lost Trim there, and lived little more than a year or two after he reached home before dying at age 40. I admit to wondering how Mrs Flinders and their one year old daughter survived after his death.

In the book’s Notes on Sources, I learned that Flinders himself wrote a short story about Trim. A tale I will hunt up.

Book 41 … Re-Visioning Psychology by James Hillman, first published in 1975. This copy published in 1992 by HarperPerennial.

After the above couple of historical accounts I took a bit of time out to re-read Re-Visioning Psychology. “This is a book about soul-making,” says the author. “This is an essay …” he says. Lol, an essay of about 80,000 words going by the thickness of the book, 229 pages not counting the end notes of which there are about 30 pages of close, 8 point print.

Hillman brings Freud’s and Carl Jung’s discoveries into the 21st century. I originally started reading him to learn more about how the imagination works, the imagination that can be seen from within the mind. The metaphoric symbol system for imagination.

Not the nuts and bolts, blood-vessel and nerve bundle imagination read from the signals of an MRI machine so dearly beloved by neuroscientists. I just can’t see what I do in my mind in the machine model. And so I read people like Hillman.

I enjoy reading Re-Visioning Psychology because, although the subject is not easy, the author explains everything. And even when he sometimes uses words that can hardly be pronounced, he explains them too. You’d think this would make the work as heavy as a cement-filled balloon but no, he’ll throw in a little six word sentence where the longest word has five letters.

“Myths do not tell us how.” (P158) is that sentence. It’s about how we can live our lives. “Living one’s myth doesn’t mean simply living one myth. It means that one lives myth; it means mythical living. As I am many persons,” he says. “So I am enacting pieces of various myths. As all myths fold into each other, no single piece can be pulled out …” and described as the myth he’s living. [Had to paraphrase the last bit of the quote as the punctuation didn’t work.]

In my dreams I’ve been Artemisia, an elderly nymph, and a high priestess of the termite people. All bits of myth. And once I’ve worked out my dreams, their maybe-meaning, I can enfold the mythical entities into my real-life story. Lately I’ve been Ariadne wandering the labyrinth of life, and painting it.

Book 42 … Farmhouse by Sophie Blackall, A Lothian’s Children’s Book, first published in Aus and NZ in 2022.

I fell in love with this book while searching for another title. It was in a specials basket, which for a book is one step before being remaindered. The book cover reminded me of the intricate collage art of Jeannie Little so of course had to have a look.

It did not disappoint. It’s the story of a house on a farm and the family of a mother, father and twelve children who lived there. The children grow up and finally the last one leaves. Then animals live in the house, even a bear, and eventually the author buys it.

My granddaughter (aged 6) and I enjoyed it when she was here last, reading it through a couple of times, one after the other. Glad I saved it.

Book 43 … My Dad’s a Birdman by David Almond and illustrated by Polly Dunbar, this book began its life as a play first performed in 2003. This edition published in 2015 by Walker Books.

A kid’s book that I intended for a read-aloud book that when I got it in my hands, turned out to be unsuitable for the intended recipient. I think I sent for it to see more of the illustrator’s work. Polly Dunbar. The story is a child looking after her father with him going through some kind of mental breakdown.

Although there’s a happy outcome, I found it quite a bleak story. I imagine that as a performance, more could’ve been made of the humorous parts.

Pacing …

Fish … watercolour … Rita de Heer

Pacing is what I’ve been doing. Not much else, than reading and a bit of painting. Because I’ve been going mad due to psoriasis in my ears, all over my scalp and now also on my face. Mad with itch. It’s another auto-immune disorder. Add it to the two or three I already have and you get why I need the pacing.

I’ve been trying to get out into the sun more because that used to fix the psoriasis. Though that means using extra energy, and that means more pacing. Letting stuff go. One Life Lived Well describes pacing beautifully. Give her a read and you’ll know all about it.

https://onelifelivedwell.substack.com

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Book 35 … Living with Borrowed Dust: Reflections on Life, Love and Other Grievances by James Hollis PhD, published by Sounds True in 2025.

Had this unread on my shelves from last year. This time the title grabbed me, “living with borrowed dust.” That’s the dust of the stars we are all made of. I’ve read a few of James Hollis’s books by now, and reading this one, started to suspect that he’s regurgitating his material. And that once I’d read one I’d read them all.

That could be true about this one. It’s a kind of a autobiography/memoir—I can’t tell the difference between them. He has this aphorism, “Shut up; suit up; show up!” First time I read it, several years ago, I laughed. But took it on board. This is me, here, showing up in this project I set myself back in January.

When I read the quote above on page 106, I felt vindicated. Thought I should’ve saved my money. Because also in this little book Hollis quotes regularly from his previous books. So it’s hard to understand isn’t it, that my next read is also one of his?

Book 36 … Living Between Worlds: Finding Personal Resilience in Changing Times by James Hollis PhD, published by Sounds True in 2020

It’s an earlier book and while almost the same size, it’s weightier. Chewier. “Living between worlds” … I relate to that. I’m living between worlds, as we all are in the West. Yesterday I watched two thirds of a documentary about life in the climate-challenged parts of the world. Millions of people already impacted. And I can’t even let myself continue thinking about it all—takes too many spoons—I’m not strong enough.

But … This book. The two worlds are our inner struggles and our “modern human existence”. Looking back through it, I see I’ve underlined many sections, a sure sign I wrestled with it. In this book, Hollis is proving to us that we “human animals are equipped for survival”. With creativity, wisdom and connection, he means.

This is the kind of book I have lying beside me on the couch for a few months, to be able to read a couple of pages anytime I feel like I need to work out my mental muscles.

And this book is the reason I began a side project, painting various scenes from Theseus in the Labyrinth. Done two. More planned. Theseus turned out to be a non-hero to me. After he killed the minotaur, he abandoned Ariadne, and sailed off into the wide blue yonder. Typical for a rolling stone?

Book 37 … A Canticle for Leibowitz by Walter M Miller Jr, a 60th Anniversary edition published by Orbit Books in 2019.

I remembered starting to read this a good few years ago but could not recall why I didn’t finish it. Recently, a good friend recommended it—raved about it, in fact—saying it was the best, greatest sf novel of the 20th century. So I bought it since my local library has moved on.

Lol, might even send it to him. After I give my sf reading buddy a go at it though I seriously doubt he’ll be able to get into it.

Couldn’t remember anything about the Canticle after I confirmed it wasn’t the story about the monk who went underground in New Zealand and expected to come out in the northern hemisphere. That was a short experimental film I saw somewhere, also many years ago. I guess I conflated them since they are both about monks.

I can totally understand now why I didn’t finish it. Though, just for the heck of it, may re read it. Maybe next year. It could be one of those books that improves the better you know it. I have to give it that opportunity.

A review in Good Reading calls it a “seriously funny, stunning, and tragic, eternally fresh, imaginative, and altogether remarkable, A Canticle for Leibowitz retains its ability to enthrall and amaze.”

While a review in The Story Graph said: “There is a lot of science talk, but more in conversation/discussion rather than its use. Also there’s a lot of religious style quotes and I hate that writing style. And in general the writing style is boring and at times confusing because of huge jumps in time.”

It’s post apocalyptic, written in the nineteen fifties and probably the author went to war and had surfeit of battlefield memories he couldn’t get out of his head. There are huge time jumps and so there aren’t any characters I could get invested in. It even felt impersonal, like an overview.

Book 38 … The Messenger by Markus Zusak, published by Pan McMillan, this edition from 2023.

Tore through this in a couple of hours, a disappointingly lightweight read. Then learned it had been made into a TV series and can just about see that as a lightweight script as well, if I could be bothered viewing it. (And couldn’t find it for a pic.)

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I’ve been in two minds whether to include study and text books in this project.

In October 2023 I signed up with Dream School run by the This Jungian Life group.

For a year, I read course studies and completed online assignments, to start to learn how to interpret dreams. This followed on from months of nightmares and a short stint with a Jungian psychoanalyst.

After the end of the course, I continued with the analyst for another year. Which brought me to late last year. Since then I’ve been reading rather voraciously and, at the beginning of the year, beginning this project.

After I read Book 31 … Bone House by Betsy Tobin I was at a loss. Though I have plenty of other books lying around, a dozen un read and many many that could do with a second or third reading, I was feeling jaded. Like it was the end of a holiday.

I felt like I needed some chewier fare, a project with a bit of heft. Picked up MDR by Carl Jung, having had it on my shelves for about a year.

Book 32 … Memories, Dreams and Reflections: An Autobiography by Carl Jung translated from the German by Richard and Clara Winston, published by William Collins, a paperback edition in 2019.

This is not a book you can just read in one sitting, or even a week. It took me well over a month, the whole of May, I might as well say, there being plenty in it for me to think about.

When I started having nightmares back in 2023, I had already thought that I needed a way to think about what was happening in my mind. I wasn’t happy with the physical world of neuroplasticity, MRIs of people’s brains firing, the whole kit and caboodle of studying flesh-and-blood brains and what looks like is happening in them, and thinking that that is the be-all-and-end-all of how minds work.

So when I fell over Jungian dream interpretation by way of the This Jungian Life podcasts, I was stoked. Seemed to me that this was the lyric metaphoric way of thinking about what happens in minds that I could relate to. Been in that mode ever since.

(Stoked is an informal adjective meaning to be highly excited, enthusiastic, or exhilarated about something. Originating in surfing and skateboarding slang, it shares the same root as feeding or fueling a fire—meaning your energy and enthusiasm are burning brightly, Google)

Memories Dreams and Reflections, MDR for short, is both Jung’s autobiography and an account of his studies and discoveries. Despite what many people think, he went about his project of exploring what happens in our minds in a scientific way. He describes his experiments and the empirical results.

He named the personal unconscious that we all have, and discovered the deeper, archetypal unconscious we all have.

(Archetype is a Jungian psychology concept of an inherited unconscious predisposition, behavioral trait or tendency (“instinct”) shared among the members of the species …Wikipedia)

And then spent the rest of his life exploring how the unconscious works with the ego—your conscious mind. But he was writing in the early third to half of the 20th century and his turn of phrase, if anything, is quite esoteric, readable by only a small number of people, and somewhat turgid for the likes of me. I knew I would have to search out those interpreting him for more modern readers. And plus, I knew also that I’d be reading some light relief.

Book 33 … Unfinished Woman by Robyn Davison, published by Bloomsbury Publishing in 2023.

Picked this up from down in the Vista foyer where there’s a long shelf under the parcel bench, dedicated to memoirs, autobiographies and some histories.

Lol, love all these prepositions one after the other “up from down in” … makes sense, I hope?

The same Robyn Davison who lived Tracks and then wrote it. From the back cover, “In 1977, 27 year old Robyn Davison set off with a dog and four camels to cross 1700 miles of Australian desert to the sea.” I had that book for years. Don’t recall where I picked it up, second hand while traveling that same desert probably. Camp laundries are the best places to pick up good books.

I already had a soft spot for camels and loved the desert. I read that book more times than I can remember.

Davison was born on a cattle station, is quintessentially Australian, and the first modern woman explorer I read about. My heroine the minute I read about her. This memoir, about the forces that set her up to wander, to travel, to always be on the move, is a gripping read.

A poor childhood, her mother suicides, and Robyn thereafter is raised by her father and older sister in an outer Brisbane suburb. She was in London for the first time roundabout the same time I was in London.

After that she goes on to do all the romantic-sounding things that women in those days usually only could read about. Marrying an Indian prince. Living in London and writing. But, you know, there are always costs.

Book 34 … The Incredible Journey by Sheila Burnford, first published by Hodder and Stoughton in 1961. This copy by Vintage Books in 2013.

Bought this for a ninth birthday present and read it hoping to discover whether it could still rip my heart out. So many books written in the past lose their numinosity when set against more modern texts. Realizing this is a function not only of the language they are written in, but also the culture that nowadays washes through our minds.

It has this in the front as a prologue…  

The Beasts by Walt Whitman (1855)
I think I could turn and live with animals, they are so placid and self-contain’d,
I stand and look at them long and long.
They do not sweat and whine about their condition,
They do not lie awake in the dark and weep for their sins,
They do not make me sick discussing their duty to God,
Not one is dissatisfied, not one is demented with the mania of owning things,
Not one kneels to another, nor to his kind that lived thousands of years ago,
Not one is respectable or unhappy over the whole earth

Sounds modern, doesn’t it?

— — — —

The first three pages are a description of the setting, which I suspect may largely be skipped when reading them aloud. But still, the setting hasn’t suffered from the encroachment of modernity. I suspect only if you live right there will you know of the depredations of industries such as milling, mining and road-making.

The three animals are introduced in the next chapter. Two dogs and a cat. They’re being cared for by a friend of their human family and his housekeeper, Mrs Oakes, while their own family is overseas. A couple of weeks before the family is due back, the animals take off for home.

A distance of about two hundred and fifty miles separated the animals from their home, with plenty of dangers along the way. Bears, porcupine, floods, cold, snow, irascible farmers with shotguns. As well as just enough kindly humans to help the animals along.

I thoroughly enjoyed it. It hasn’t lost anything in the years since I read it to my nine year old. It’s a famous story. Disney made two movies of it, but to me it’ll always be a favorite read. And by that I mean a text I take in with my eyes.

About Meld …

To all those readers keenly following MELD … I have been feeling quite doubtful about continuing it. Though I’ve written dozens of good chapters, it seems that unconsciously I’m burdening yet another suffering viewpoint character with an additional internal entity. And that, after three versions already on the same or similar theme. I’m obviously going to have to do more dream therapy.

So, while I sleep on MELD, I’ll repost EARTH GIRL. I don’t think I’ve yet posted her story on this (WordPress) blog. Lol, among 600+ posts? I can’t find it. I think offered it on Google+ back in that day.

I’ve got a nice cover for it, thank you ronnie@https://tegnemaskin.no/

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This installment is late due to my doctors and other appointments and rain slowing down things on the ground. Fairly early last week or the week before, this truck rolled in with a drilling rig from Anora Foundations.

Once that semi was out of the picture—me taking a shot from Level 6—a CAT digger followed by a truck with ancillary equipment.


The crews meeting at the top of the site, the scene of operations for the week …


For a while we residents were still guessing as to what was needing foundations

Getting the machinery operational took a full morning and then it was on … the drill being shook to dislodge all the rubble …


Pole shaped rebar arriving …

And that wasn’t the only thing going on, in between showers of rain, the workers ‘village’ was getting its walkways covered.


All the trucking movements, and dare I say the continuing rain, meant that the road to the platform had to be repaired and strengthened before the cement mixer trucks could come to fill the holes …


Close up of the machinery … I was walking by the herb garden, on my way to yet another appointment.


And finally the result … a row of foundations. Probably for a retaining wall is the general opinion.

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Monday 25 May, 2026:


First thing this morning flagged safety barriers were put up. Soon after 8.30 a/m a bunch of visitors arrived the check out the scene, is what I first thought. Now thinking them the new crew serving the drilling rig, inspecting the platform …

All kinds of excitement this morning. Two new machines from Anora Foundations were trucked in and unloaded … (Took this shot from the sixth floor. The door to the fire escape slipped shut, and lol I had to walk down ten flights of stairs to the podium. Live and learn, as the saying goes.)


Quote from anora.com.au “Specialising in bored piers, retention systems, and micropile installations, Anora supports projects of every calibre and complexity from residential foundations through to Tier 1 commercial and infrastructure projects.”

The blue machine, after it was driven off the semi, made its way to the mysterious shelf built at the front of the site. Here being prepped …

The CAT set to unloading the gear needed to run the drilling machine.

Covered walkways being installed between the cabins.

The drilling rig unfolded …