Lodestar 57, Scrim

The Dead Nubie
Scrim saw that Mapmaker had the little flag up at his house for Scrim to come over for a yarn. Good, because Scrim had a sheet of paper for Mapmaker and a couple of tallows. Already a routine, when Scrim got there, he and Mapmaker first did their trading business.

“And I would like anything colored you can find,” Mapmaker said. “Stones, bones, plastic, glass, anything. I grind it all up, and mix it with pigeon-eggyolk to make paint. Greaves left you these rabbits.”

Scrim hung the smoked rabbits by the door for on his way out then joined Mapmaker at his indoor stove fire for dinner.

“People come to me to with their things for me to paint them. I talk with them, ask them where they got this or that interesting thing. Lately, it’s always something they traded with Andover.
I ask them, Who is Andover? They tell me That kid, you know, that skinny freckle with dry-grass-colored dreads? And then they say He says, You want to trade? And-over same time, they say.”

Scrim chuckled to hear his trading described so. “I like trading. I look all over for things what people want. Glass for Grievous. What people call him behind his back.”

“Who? Why Grievous?” Mapmaker said. “I’m interested. Everything helps me.”

“He wears one arm hidden in his coat. Like he pretends that arm is gone,” Scrim said looking careful at Mapmaker. Did Mapmaker already know that? “I saw him picking up a thing from the street and forgetting to bend the arm in his coat with the rest of him. His street name is Greaves.”

Mapmaker looked disbelieving. “Greaves is a friend. You’ve heard me mention him. He gave me the rabbits for you to trade.”

“Why so kind to me? Something he wants, I bet. You’ve known him for a long time with only one arm? I feel bad that he’s pretending to you.”

Mapmaker frowned.

Scrim changed the subject. He trusted Mapmaker to ask around about the why of Grievous. “I find paper for you. Pots with holes and good dirt for Wobby and them growing gardens. All these streets are my patch for finding stuff.” He spread his arms big to show Mapmaker everywhere he went. “There’s a lot of stuff hidden in broke places where only young ones—skinny like me—can get into.”

“When you call me Mapmaker it’s like me calling you Andover. It’s a street name,” Mapmaker said. “For friends like you, I am Wal.”

“I never heard anyone call you by your friend name.”

“Friend names have to be secret. We’re always looking for ways to break the hold the medi-techs have on the numbers.”

Now Mapmaker—Wal—frowned fierce. Like he had searched his mind for knowledge he might’ve let slide into a corner. Like he found it and studied at it properly, and didn’t like what he saw.
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Grievous lived in a hide in a garbage hill with a stinking fire in the entrance making hazy smoke all day. His trade was smoked short-eared rabbits though Scrim only saw friendly fat rats playing in the mountain when he spied on Grievous from the row-houses across the street.

Next time he met Wal, Scrim told Wal his suspicioning. “Grievous is making like he got an arm took by the medi-techs like you got your under-legs took? Why?”

I’m a number,” Wal said. “My legs are on a customer who wore out his own. Greaves is no number. All week I asked every other who ran at the same time Greaves said he ran. No one saw him.”

“Running the maze, every number too busy being scared to remember anyone,” Scrim said.

“They said that. But even while being brought by the raiders no one met Greaves. Still, smoked rabbits from Grievous for glass from Scrim is a good trade. Because now we know and can find out what he’s up to by keeping our eyes on him.”
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All Scrim’s salvaging times were in the daytime before the hooter went for the new transies to jump out of their barrack to haunt the streets. That exact time too the anubots ticked back to their gate.   

The nubies were shiver-some. After the hooter one day, a transy quicked out alone, ahead of his mates. The nubie was a slow egg unfolding like he stiff after sitting all day watching opposite Tom’s stall. So they met, nubie and transy.

The transy wanted to melt into the roadway when he knew his shadow. The nubie slitzed his knife hands and the transy was pieces in a puddle of blood, too quick for Scrim’s eyes to shut. Only good thing was no more transies in that street for a few nights.

“What’s anubots?” he asked Wal next time they met.

“The way they look. Robots like ancient old anubis-gods. Some medi-tech’s idea of a joke. Or maybe management already had that pattern and made it do for a new project. I’d like to know their use.”

“Why they’re made, you mean?”

“Yes, I bet it’s more than just killing transomatics.”

“Why do they?”

“I don’t know. Nubies look peacefully at my cat and my flyers. But I watch out I don’t cross their shadows because we don’t get to know each other. Keeping them contained could be another reason for the city to be closed.” 

The right-side gate off the walled square at the end of the maze led to the labs where the medi-techs did their deeds, Wal said. Transies went in and out of a gate at the top of the square. Left-side was the gate the nubies came out of every morning once the transies were home.

Where Scrim hid, he could only see nubies striding through their gate. Today five of them returned. Yesterday only four. Day before seven. Wal promised by talking with all his comers to find out how many nubies all told.

Because nubies being the mystery he was studying, Scrim also swung left but along the outside of the wall. He followed a good road, straight and with abandoned row-houses both sides. Yards at their backs. He searched for a high-up to camp the night and from where he’d see how it looked on the other side of the wall. But none of the ruins here were tall enough and he left hiding almost too late.

Transomatic voices cursed and complained around a side street corner. Like they seen him earlier and curved round to catch him. Scrim dived into the nearest wall-side house thanking luck for its shadowed doorway.

The transies arguing along didn’t see him.

He breathed again. Hesitated stepping back out. If he continued out on the road to return home to his high-up, he’d be scared all the time to meet a gang of transies. He might as well stay the night. In houses he often found scraps of paper Wal was always happy to see.

Before settling, he tasted the darkness, mouth open, breathing gently through his nose, ready for any stray smell. Only the moldy old of the house. Cat pee and rat piss. The dank earth below the floor. And last, a foul sweet rot of some ammal—man, woman or beast—recently dead.

All night there was no noise except for roof iron creaking to the cold and rats playing. When he woke there was a beam of sun laid over everything in its path—torn walls, stuff, dirt floor—to the few planks where he lay. In its journey to him the sun temptingly twinkled over a glass in the dirt under where the floor once was.

Though he should see the death stink first. But probly just a cat or rat, falled over of hunger. Anyway on the dirt the death smell was much less. Only the old dank smell there and the glass looked a biggie.

Curved shards of green and brown were both common. This one green. He was hopeful for a bottle because the curve went round deeper and deeper. He pushed through the dirt with a stick.

A different kind of prize appeared. Once a bottle but now a glass with its top ground smooth. He poked the stick down into it to clear dirt from inside. In the rubble he would’ve used old grass to cushion it in his pack. What here? Look around outside? He stood the glass steady in a corner to save it from an accidental.

In the yard the death smell was strong. There lay a nubie. Big steels, rounded muscled panels, toes for tickin on the road, a fist of knives flung scattered, almost at Scrim’s frightened feet.

He stood like a stone but the anubot did not move. With his stick Scrim did the unthinkable, touching stick tip to knife tip. The nubie finger fell back un-alive with a skitzing of steel over steel.

From beyond the wall came skitzy whistles and scratching like a knife edge working on true stone. A anubot-sized dark eclipsed the light showing through a gaping crack in the wall.

Then Scrim was too scared to stay and too scared to run. What if a hand of knives grasped the top of the wall and a nubie vaulted over? But only sunshards came burning holes in his eyesight from skittering on steel whenever the nubie at the wall-crack moved.

A story came to him of the events. The wall so tall, but saggy because it too heavy to straddle the slumped ground under it. In the kinnie home-cave the same thing happened. Min liked every one of her kinnies to remember because of the baby what got killed when the wall closing out the weather slumped. That wall once-upon-a-time built by kinnies themselves.

Here the wall was seriously broke, with a large piece lower than its mates. One side of this house’s yard was a stepped crack to the top, like a little set of stair, the other side a gape big enough for a nubie to see through. 

This dead one climbed the broke wall to escape? Why would he, kinnie? When they can go in and out at the regular gate? So this one made a bad mistake. Climbed the wall and killed himself dead?

Smelling of death-rot now meant it was alive before. That’s a puzzle. The smell thickest and most foul here by the head … which was of closed steel, with no mouth or lips on its muzzle. With his stick Scrim pushed the nubie muzzle skywards.

Ichor trickled from a mass of maggots under a lid thing that fell off the neck. The lid thick and silver with tech-tronics all over. The eye-window was stained with boiled brains. Scrim heaved emptily. Breakfast would’ve been wasted.

Inside the body were struts of steel and wire and technics but the poor head was flesh. And should be buried, he thought in Min’s voice. He looked around for ideas. The ground near the wall was loose and rubbley, easy to dig. He used a leg steel as scoop and got a good hole.

Because of not wanting to touch it, he shoved the head along the ground between the stick and the leg steel, and slid it into the hole so the ears stood proud out of the ground. To show that the nubie was once alive, Scrim fetched the glass to put in a feather out of his hair. Because the nubies liked the flyers. 

    Reuse, Repair, Repurpose, Recycle

    Thankfully, Carindale Mall’s Apple outlet encourages people to bring in their old Apple appliances for recycling. Getting rid of my old laptop didn’t need me asking someone to drive me to the tip, I swung by on one of my shopping trips.

    Ditto the iPhone wandering from cupboard to shelf to benchtop unable to be switched on. I could’ve sent it to mobilemuster.org but that would’ve meant a trip to the post office by bus and money to send.

    Another initiative also in the Carindale Shopping Centre, is the Food Bank out the front of Woollies. That’s where I bring unopened food products I’ve bought and brought home, and then reading the finely printed ingredients list, discover an ingredient on my dietary exclusions list.

    I love how there are beginning to be recycling opportunities in places where people need to go anyway—to not have to spend money, time, and cough out CO2 and petrol fumes—to recycle.

    Camera and mobile phone places often have a box out front for batteries to be recycled. One of the bookshops takes secondhand books in good condition, which was another good discovery. As I get more books relating to the course I’m studying, I also need to send other books on their way. Shelf space is limited.

    Then there are opportunities for repair. All three pairs of my bamboo socks were starting to thin in places. The solution to that are patches. I usually crochet patches. This time I thought I would also try some felt.

    Above, everything I need for a repair job. Below, the orange in the sock and the sewing in progress …

    Books On Books Collection – Karen Green

    Here/Gone (2008) Here/Gone: An ABC Flip Book for Grown Ups (2008) Karen Green Perfect bound, invertible flipbook. 215 x 215 mm. pages. Acquired from…

    Books On Books Collection – Karen Green

    While I am always on the lookout for art books to interact with, every so often I see/read/hear about a book process or published article with so much promise as well as being very special in itself, I instantly would like to ‘own’ it.

    To hold it in my hands. To leaf through it. Turn and turn it about, reading the story from go to woe … which in this story is the reality. To love it, in effect.

    Yet this share to my blog will have to do me this time!

    What’s a thing you would like to ‘own’ but cannot?

    ‘Seared in My Memory’ …Part One

    Was thinking this morning about the four countries where I’ve lived. I’m not counting England/London because it was more like a long but intermittent stay of about a year.

    It struck me that I have a series of images and sensations that come up for each country every time I think of anything to do with that place. And it’s like I must acknowledge those moments before any other thinking can get going.

    Next I winnowed through each series to find the single most important moment to me. Came up with four moments that are seared in my memory.

    I was born in North Holland, in the Netherlands. When I was about six years old, my father took me ice skating. A local farmer would’ve flooded a field for a hard winter freeze to turn into a skating rink.

    The only thing I remember was how I fell over and between my hands on the ice saw a bright yellow dandelion flower set among a three of sap green dandelion leaves in the ice. Lifting my gaze a little, I understood there this ice skating rink was.

    That little flower encased and covered by ice is my primary memory of my childhood. When I think of my early years up to age ten, that little flowers is always the first thing that comes to mind.

    In Indonesia, where we lived next, for a ‘big’ year as my mother used to call it (about fourteen months) the moment that stands out for me was a moment of the half hour I spent utterly alone sitting on a large rock in a nearby creek (kali).

    Rainforest lined both sides of the little river with no paths that I could see. And anyway, the way back was rock-hopping over the stones till I came to the place where the village (kampong) women washed their clothes.

    The hot blue sky above pressed me down on the rock and I sat with my feet in the water. I don’t recall wearing shoes. A couple of rocks furter upstream, a log seemed to come alive. A large lizard, probably of the goanna tribe, dipped its fore half down into the water. To drink I thought.

    But no, it slid all the way in and went I don’t know where. I’d risen as it slid down. I hovered waiting to see where it would come up.

    All I recall next is the rock hopping way back, and that I was wearing a white drill cloth dress with embroidery round the hem. For heaven’s sake, I think now, why a white, embroidered dress to muck about in?

    Fast forwarding now to Australia, where we arrived in late 1959. It’s difficult to extract just the one outstanding moment here. I grew up north of Sydney and then spent six years in New Zealand.

    Since I returned until now I’ve lived a variety of different kinds of life. So I think I’ll honour them all, all those different lives in a separate post.

    New Zealand is the first country where my soul felt at home. I haven’t worked out yet why that is. Many of my fictions are set in an amalgam of New Zealand/Aoteoroa that I called Leaf Island.

    Which is a fictional island rising from the edge of the actual submerged continent Zealandia, about halfway between present day New Zealand and Australia.

    My adventures in New Zealand in the early 1970s took me to a small dairying community at the base of the Urewera Range. The whole two years I lived there, I wanted to go up into the Ureweras and explore the wilderness. But I would need a guide. Someone who was native to the place.

    Hard to meet for a shy new pakeha (White resident of NZ) woman when most of the Ureweras were owned by Maori.

    I met a man who might’ve taken me on his last day in Murupara before he immigrated to Parramatta in Australia where he had a job. On my last day in the valley, I drove to the foot of the mountain.

    The plain was flat. The Urewera Range rises steeply out of it without foothills. I parked my car in a newish gravelled carpark. Walked to the mountain. Afternoon light burnished the low heather/montane vegetation.

    I put my hands on the earth and soil in front of me as if I would climb up. The slope was between 45 and 70 degrees from the horizontal I remember thinking.

    I didn’t climb. Stood there with just my hands spread pressing into the thin soil backed with the stone of ages. A shield wall at the edge of the Mt Ruapehu volcano’s caldera. When I think mountain, that’s it, the Ureweras. An ongoing mystery.

    When I woke I lifted my hands from the almost vertical ground taking care not to dislodge the little shrubs and miniature grasses. The sun was well down in the west, a glowing ball on the western horizon.

    No other mountains have owned me the way the Ureweras own me. They are the most numinous landscape in my mind.

    Meditative Art

    Life has been challenging over this past week. Sometimes things happen that are difficult, if not impossible, to process. Such has been our …

    Meditative Art

    This post by Judith on https://artistcoveries.wordpress.com/ was a serendipitous find for me when I was casting about for a distraction from the on-going disaster that is the world out there. I had already weakened and thrown a train of the ongoing grief onto the page (previous post) when I recalled how soothing painting can be and thought that I should get back to it.

    There’s nothing I can do about the ongoing train-wreck but keep myself sane and … I just don’t know what we as individuals can do.

    Painting these miniatures my whole attention needs to go into every step of the process. They offer me three stages … I sketch, trace the important lines with black waterproof, and I paint. Six miniatures per A4 page, with two more to serve as a front door into the space and backdoor, or gate, out of the space.

    Unfinished sketch of a corner of a living room. A few more elements before I can call it done. the flowers need a touch of color, for example. And so do the bricks in the fireplace. 10 x 9.5 cm or 4 x 3.7 inches.

    Before I put pen to paper I need to set the scheme out, and it’s easy to make a mistake. As I did with this series. To put the booklet together with the least number of cuts and gluing, the six inner elements need to be positioned facing upward, facing downward, facing upward. That didn’t happen here:

    … and I will need to do more cutting and more gluing to get a successful outcome. My fingers are crossed.

    Product Presentation

    Carry Bag Handles

    One of my ongoing interests is how products are packaged. This began when I was about fifteen and my birth family hosted two Japanese engineers who were in Australia to install and test a huge new Japanese generator (or transformer) at the power plant where my father also was an engineer, and who brought us lots of presents.

    During the week these men lived in a boarding house, and weekends Saturday or Sunday, they came to our place at Berowra, in the outer northern suburbs of Sydney in the 1960s.

    At the time we had a garage which served as living and dining room and my parents bedroom, while kids had two bedrooms in the house built by my father on weekends, one room for three boys and one for three girls.

    I don’t recall the power station. It could’ve been Lidell and that would’ve been a family shorthand nickname.

    Lol, getting mired in backstory there!

    Japanese packaging has always been superb! Classy! Stylish! Rave rave rave!

    I saved all the wrappings of all the presents they gave us and kept them for years. And when I was in Japan, in 1976, I saved all packaging from vending machines and the like. I think at the end of my four months travel through Asia, Siberia, Russia and Scandinavia, a good bit of my luggage was souvenired packaging.

    All to no avail, of course. My first night in London, the house where I was staying was robbed. All my precious collection was trampled through the mess left by two perpetrators breaking through the plasterboard ceiling, and getting away with all cameras, the family’s silver and jewellry. They even nicked my feather-down sleeping bag.

    But. Getting back to the subject. Packaging. Enduring interest.

    These cardboard ‘zippers’ fastened the lid of the box to the underside and nothing was torn taking them off. Bet they can be used again.

    The laptop was covered with this simple envelope. The paper of similar weight to greaseproof paper. And similar to greaseproof paper, is coating-free, safe for recycling in the composting bin. (So called ‘baking paper’ is NOT safe!)

    Several other bits of cardboard and paper wrapped the cord and power plug. All of it calm, plain, and functional.

    People will say we pay for all that. True. And I’d rather pay for good design than bad. I’d rather pay for paper than more plastic bags. The bag handles in the first image are probably the only non degradable parts, but will be re-used as long as the bag lasts. And possibly after that if I can find a reuse for them.

    Flickering Touchbar …

    I’m on my mobile phone … cell phone to some of you! So I can’t insert the 5 second video clip illustration of the above … either because I can’t find the instructions to achieve it or it’s not available.

    Have to make do with a still photo of the problem

    So you’ll need to imagine it. The whole touchbar—at the top of the keyboard in certain models of Macbook Pro—is now flickering the whole time the laptop is being used. For all that I know it continues to flicker when the lid is closed.

    I’ve been putting up with it since about September 2022, when it began with a couple of centimetres or an inch. After trying to have it fixed, the malady extended to 5 or 6 centimetres, which was when I stuck some blue electrical tape over it. This year that spilled into the rest of the bar, and became unbearable to use.

    Hence went out Monday afternoon to purchase a new laptop … thought I caught Covid that day … but it was probably earlier.