Lodestar 55: Scrim Into Hell City

Every day at dusk, Min, kinnie-mother, gathered all her bubs and half-grown kinnies together in a group around the little fire in their underground place in the rubble. The long-legs, two of them this year, stayed near the entrance to watch out for foreign kinnies not of their group coming to steal their food. And for wild dogs coming to steal their babies, to eat them up. And chase them away if any came.

Scrim grinned behind his hand. The whole time he was a little one, and then a half-grown, and now a long-leg, no enemies ever came. He never saw a wild dog, or a foreign kinnie not of their group, or a robot. The only foreigners he and Kel ever saw were men with bits of themselves missing. An arm or a leg. Who were easy to lead away from the hide-out coz they weren’t very fast clambering among the rubble and couldn’t run.

But here-and-now Scrim and Kel lurked behind the stone lintels either side of the entry-way into the hide-out. They looked out over the greying rubble with the daylight leaching away ahead of night coming. Both of them hungry because both of them with growing appetites. Both of them impatiently waiting for the herders to bring their booty of numbers to run the maze, so they could run the maze too. Because they were getting too big and too hungry to live among the kinnies. So said Min.

At the fire Min doled out the food and every little one and every half-grown chewed and swallowed their bread and drank their water before Min sent a half-grown to bring Scrim and Kel their bite. They both wolfed down the bread, two mouthfuls each. All there was of food that night with a cup of water.

When all the kids lay in bed, Min told the story. She used the father or mother name of the youngest of them, so that that baby would remember who to look for in Hell City if they chose to go there when they grew long legs. All the kids, long-legs included, heard their own mother and father names in the story.

Min settled herself on the blankets and started the telling. “A long time ago, Scrim-father and his Scrim-baby lived in the delta and they were out and about early in the morning for their fishing.

“The herders snuck up behind them, and looping a rope around Scrim-father started to pull him away. Little Scrim jumped into Scrim-Fa’s arms to try and stop the bad men but he wasn’t strong enough. And so they were both caught and counted as a numbers.

“After walking walking walking a long way, they came to a gap in the rubble.” Min pointed in the direction where the herders camped. “The city folk, seeing the camels coming, sent a drone to find out how-many in the cargo and stopped the lectrics for just that amount of time.

“The herders whipped the numbers into the road to the maze and Scrim-father ran and ran and ran ahead of them and over the maze. The time was short but he dropped his little Scrim into the arms of Min, kinnie-mother, thinking to save him.”

Tonight was Scrim’s last as a kinnie. In the day-that-was, Min asked Scrim would he run the maze into the city or would he go into the desert?

Scrim’s throat tightened because all he could remember then were Scrim-father’s strong hands clenching little Scrim tight to his heart for the running, and his ribs pumping out and in like bellows as he breathed hard and hard. And Scrim felt again how Scrim-father changed directions, like he turned on the ball of his foot, and ran diagonal across the path of the other runners.

Scrim fingered the scar along his arm. He remembered how Scrim-father and little Scrim got whipped with the whip curling round and licking them both. And he remembered how Scrim-father kissed Scrim a wild smack on his head and dropped him into Min’s arms. And how he was gone. Still and always gone. Scrim cleared the raspy bit from his throat. “Why wouldn’t I go into the hell? See if I can find him?”

“If you’re sure?” Min said.

The way she said it made him feel she asked more. “You set me studying the city. Days with the telescope. Fed me even when I didn’t hunt?” He made it a question. As always, he wondered why Min’s legs didn’t grow long enough to run. She’d led the troop as far back as he could remember and she stayed the same short size all that time.

She still just watched him.

Scrim turned and looked at the land beyond the rubble. Camels were the only animal living there that he could be sure of, owned by the herders who hunted people and sold them to the hell. “Sure I’m sure,” he said.

Then she organized him. The birds, swaddled and sleeping a day and a night, in the bag. A crust of bread to tide Scrim through the night.

So that morning, he rose from among the stones lining the road well ahead of the herders, and slotted in behind the first and second rank of runners. He ran as slow as he dared. Because as always there was the looking everywhere for new-things-to-know. Around him sped the numbers, screaming their fear with wide eyes, wide mouths.

Behind them, at the entrance to the maze, the raiders, laughing and joking, cracked their whips at their captives. Over in the north, over the rubble and beyond the maze, stood the white stone gates where shining truckomatics and customer transports went in and out.

Ah!! Almost tripped!

He corrected his pace. Scolded himself. Letting my attention wander and me a growed-up kinnie what don’t aim to figure in city business? He had to stay watchful running with the numbers so he didn’t get caught up in the mob funneling at the end. And he had to take especial note of what went under his feet. That more especially. 

Out the corner of his left eye he saw his own kinnie troop among the blocky boulders alongside the maze. Always when they saw the kinnies, the numbers carrying their bubs and their kids veered from their straight run to push their little fry into the rubble for the kinnies to catch.

When the bell started its stridency Scrim was ready. The numbers almost stopped with fright before they started running faster because of seeing Scrim streak past with his legs pumping. He didn’t want to be nowhere near the maze when the lectrics was switched back on. The bell was the five-minit signal.

In the narrow street entrance they all jostled into, Scrim peeled off from the mob, ran a little way and shoved himself in the tween of a couple of buildings with just enough place to kneel. While he soused the fire in his heart with big gulps of air, the numbers milled into the arms of a heap of transies and were trucked away.

The place he’d picked to hide wasn’t too roomy, he found after a couple of hours. He couldn’t un-sling his backpack or reach for it over his shoulders. Small other sounds, stifled coughs-and-crying, meant probly a couple of numbers also escaped the round-up. Scrim squirmed for the food in his pack. In a minit his gut would loud-talk away his hide.

Hard feet clattered up to the gap between the buildings and Scrim thanked his luck the dark had come on.

“Sit tight, little one,” boomed a voice into the narrow canyon. “Come light I will winkle you out like a snail from its shell.”

Scrim froze like a hunted rabbit before it ran. He had to believe the transy couldn’t see him because there was no running possible. And no other place that he knew to hide in.

The footsteps went to another hiding place telling the same awful words.

Scrim had to be gone by light. He had precious cargo. Being found meant Min found and who’d look out for the kinnies then? He waited until there were no more loud feet scampering here-n-there and no more loud words thrown around. Told himself again why he picked to come into the hell. See if I can find my Scrim-father.

By-and-by he discovered that by crossing his arms he could pull the pack’s straps off his shoulders with opposite hands and slide the straps down his back. He rose by wedging himself up between the two walls, waiting sometimes for his legs to wake up. Half turning, he began to edge out, bag on his feet like a penguin-egg. A story Min had.

“Ksst.”

Scrim stopped with his heart hanging in behind his teeth.

“Ksst.”

Noise from above. The dark impenetrable. A thing that was as stealthy as a moth touched his head. One arm he flailed at it, best as he could, without making a sound. The thing come between his face and the wall, with a knot caught at his hand.

A rope.

Someone above pulled before Scrim was ready, but then let the knot down further for Scrim to stand on, bag hooked over his arm. 

A strong grip hand-over-handed Scrim to a high-up, the man swearing softly to make himself strong. 

“Bag is alive,” Scrim gasped when the precious load hung up on the frame.

“I hear you. Not a sound.”

Scrim clombered over a frame of wood. The big outside silence became small and closed-in. The man must of closed over the window hole though Scrim didn’t hear one sound and his ears pricked like a rabbit’s. He started as hands touched him.

“There you are.” The voice like a wind whisper. “Listen good. I am the Mapmaker.”

Scrim-his-business finished already! “These flyers, from Min, for you.”

“Later I thank-you. At light I have to be at my stall in the market place. I have to leave now. Don’t pass this rim.” The Mapmaker took Scrim-his-hand and showed it a wood rim on the floor. He didn’t seem any taller than a half-grown.

“In the daytime the anubots, big robots, come to see the flyers and the cat,” the Mapmaker whispered. “If they see you and think you are a bad, they’ll tear the house apart. Not a sound now because they hear better than you-and-me. In the corner is a jug of sand. Once the anubots have gone, make me a pattern of the maze, whatever you remember, there’s a good kinnie.”

The Mapmaker unhooked the bag from Scrim’s hand and clumped from the room, of a sudden making enough noise to wake the night.

Leaving Scrim to chew on a hundred questions.

Min sometimes pulled a pigeon from the air, paper on its leg. Min then said, “From the Mapmaker. This or that long-leg is gone from the city.” Successful or not she didn’t say except she eye-smiled iffen the long-leg made it alive and feral-free.

Reading faces was Scrim-his-special-good.

On the underside the paper had lines that Min put on or took off her map of the maze, the slab she had with mud grooves on it, that all her long-legs had to get by heart.

The Mapmaker stumbled about in the next room. Why would he iffen he knew where everything stood? Scrim heard him say, “Hup!” And then heard long sliding-sound. More stumblings down below.

A feeling came of his little self sliding down a mud-slide back home in the delta. The Map-Maker had a mud-slide in his house? A door down there scraped open. Metal on metal went squeaking from the house, stopped to close the door, and metal on metal creaked west.

A hundred and fifty questions. Scrim stretched out to doze the dark away.

    ‘A Scanner Darkly’

    By Phillip Dick, an SF Masterwork published in 1999, original from 1977

    https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Scanner_Darkly

    Wrote this post three years ago:

    “She risked her masked-up health and went into her new favorite library, St Vinnies—an Op Shop, charity or opportunity store—and “borrowed” eight old-fashioned print books. This because the local library was shut for Christmas-and-New-Year and the local virtual library not listening to her passwords, library id or pins.

    “On arriving home, she began reading Phillip K Dick’s A Scanner Darkly. Not wanting to stop for lunch she got a bottle of water, and a jar of Pano dark choc bits. Ate the latter and drank the former while continuing to read. Round about 4.30 PM, she remembered the not-getting-sick parameter, and drank more water before making and eating a peanut butter sandwich with blueberries.

    “Though the read was not all that gripping, she’d decided to read it, so read it she would. If that makes sense. The title, which an FB friend was attracted to after the crone posted a pic of a bag full of reading matter, sounds like a take on ‘through a glass darkly’ … let me just check that …

    “OMG! yourbibleversedaily dot com tells her: “For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known. – 1 Corinthians 13:12. Paul’s famously poetic statement about the difficulty of knowing God in this life says a lot more than at first meets the eye.”

    “Well, it tells her it’s definitely worth it to check references, sometimes only vaguely known. What she has read so far of Through a Scanner Darkly … Yep, yep, definitely shaping up … to Augustine’s interpretation: “For Augustine, we see the image of ourselves clearly, but, as a reflection of God, the image is an imperfect way of gazing upon God.”

    “All she can think is, that poor sap. (Thinking about A Scanner Darkly’s MC now.) He thinks he’s on top of what he’s trying to do but of course he will come a cropper. I wouldn’t be surprised, she thinks, if there’s a proper death at the end, not just the split-brain drug-addled undeath.
    So. She’ll keep reading. [Posted 22 Dec 2021]

    This is me, here and now, two and a half years on. Apparently I did blog this at the time but I can’t somehow deliver the image. As you’ll have noticed this isn’t a book review but another post about blogging. What a supposed ‘seamless transfer’ looks like on the ground. When advertising gurus talk about seamless transfers they don’t take into account the oceanic number of input/output skills out there/here or the infinite gradations of computer use competence.

    I know that though I’ve been using computers for 28+/- years, my skill set is highly idiosyncratic, as is that of everyone else who was self-taught. And I believe the majority of us are, aren’t we?

    I had three options of delivering that pic and none worked so far. My Media Library has about 800 images in it, but not apparently the cover of the novel I was writing about. I did a Search and got a virtual copy. The result of that maneuver is at the top. No image that I can see. And if it does appear in the post between the time I hit the Publish button and you read it, it’ll be the old pic. Not the Blue green and yellow version gracing the Masterwork.

    Or I could take a photo of the print version I have, email it to myself and download it. That hasn’t worked either. So far. Google for some reason has retrieved an email address I left in the dust six years ago.

    My Google ID is my next job.

    Stuck!

    Me screaming frustration …

    I am stuck between a rock and a hard place Americans might say. Old Americans, probably. I don’t know if that aphorism is still being used.

    I am stuck between my old Mac, with an old copy of Microsoft Word that I’m perfectly happy with, and new Mac with a so-far unlicensed Microsoft Word 365 that has frozen several of my Files. I haven’t been asked did I want the new version and I definitely haven’t agreed to hosting it on my computer.

    Of course I know it’s probably some handshake agreement between Apple and Microsoft, they thinking that because a person purchases an Apple laptop they will naturally want also to purchase a gazillion MB word processor suite with no questions asked.

    It’s here and it’s freezing my work as if it owns my output. That fact already is making me dig my heels in. My files, on my computer–not even online– frozen on the say-so of a company too big for its boots? Ee-ee-eh! That’s me screaming, frustrated already.

    I can’t post either Brick Stories or Lodestar as my files are stuck in Word-ruled limbo for some so-far unidentified reason, and it’s ironic because the only thing I use Word for is to turn screeds into PDFs, as I generally use Scrivener for first and second drafts. So I really really resent having to purchase a huge program, either on a monthly basis at $11 US ad infinitum, or outright for over $200 US … just to free my work!

    I can’t even copy and paste into a another program. And this is immediately after I proved I’m human. This is the material I personally wrote, for pity’s sake!

    Just had a call from BH who suggested I check out Acrobat Reader. Good idea. I will. But first Scrivener. Surely it has the capability to PDF? Sounds like a dance. It’s all I need a couple of steps here, then there.

    Found it. Scrivener dances the PDF.

    Goodbye, Microsoft.

    Reading ‘Weaponized’

    Reading Weaponized by Neal asher (2023) was a marathon.

    Section of the Front Cover

    There are a couple of Asher’s novels I’ve enjoyed, The Skinner and The Voyage of the Sable Keech, for example, the first two instalments of the Spatterjay trilogy, published in the early 2000s.

    I found those inventive and engrossing. I still think with fondness about the living ship. The Polity novels that intervene between those and Weaponized are set in a human universe ruled by AIs.

    In Weaponized a bunch of human characters from the polity intend to colonize an outer planet. They’re all in their second or third century and are bored. They intend to go back to basics somewhere new.

    Ursula Ossect Treloon is their leader. The plot is a relentless competition for superiority between the human would-be settlers, and the native wildlife.

    Neither of them wins when both appear to be taken over by superior Jain technology, from yet another universe. The end is is circular, a mystery, when a fragment of Ursula is saved by the Polity mole.

    Most of the story is the ‘science’ describing the adaptations that need to be made to continue the struggle to survive an ever evolving enemy.

    And this is an evolution happening at a daily at most week’s pace. The actual plot was told with a series of one liners buried in the almost baroquely detailed descriptions of the technology. Non-stop action as the back cover promises.

    By about a third of the way through, I was wishing for a bit of ordinary narrative, describing the settlers ordinary time. But if anything proceedings notched up, there was never any relief.

    Lego: Bosley’s Builders, 14

    14. The Stairs Go-to Crew

    Bosley studied the staircase Tim put together to get people to their accommodation after the complaints about the ready-made he conveniently installed at the end of the block right by his and Trish’s quarters, with no access by anyone else.

    He shook his head. Nice staircase but a heavy use of materials. And bulky. And not used now that that half of the crew were absent. Wendy and Jackie were at the hospital, Wendy at her midwifing. Dan was away somewhere salvaging. And Jed … Who knew if he’d even turn up again.

    Think we scared him off.  Not a happy young man. Just the six of us here, counting Nin Wiz who is a silent fella, Ruff who is not a noisy type either, Trish, Tim, Drew and me.

    He looked around. Drew stood on the hardware store’s front terrace, gesticulating. Hard at work discussing the hardware store’s fire-stair with Ms Bee and Ms Sander that looked like. All three engrossed in the discussion.

    Bosley listened for the rest of the crew. He heard Tim and Trish discussing the next stage on their cabin with a throw-away comment every so often at Nin. Sounded like they were all quite busy too.

    He chuckled at the offending staircase. So I’m safe disappearing this object of despair? Object despite that it couldn’t be shifted without breaking it down. Despair because of the heartache the building of it caused the builder. Disappear because it’s in the wrong place, takes up too much space and I need it gone. 

    With each thought he jimmied off a tread. Stacked them back in Tim’s container. Then he fetched a brick separator and levered off bricks starting from the top. The clattering of the blocks on the ground brought only Ruff.

    What idea haven’t I used yet to get a good stair go-to crew? Bosley ruminated. Well, I know we already have him, it’s just that he’s hiding his talents under a constant stream of denials. So. Idea?

    “Before we begin on the bunkhouse,” Bosley said next morning. “I’d like for us to put together a semi-permanent stair or ladder to get to the top of the walls. Who’s going to give that a go? Drew?”

    “Drew?” Drew said. “Drew gets to build the stairs?”

    “What?” Boz said in an injured tone. “I thought you said that way back. That you wouldn’t mind being the stair-go-to guy?”

    “I really really don’t remember that,” Drew said. “What about Tim?” he said at Tim, who just arrived at their little confab.

    “What about Tim?” Tim said.

    “Nope,” Bosley said. “Tim put his hand up for the freshwater supply.”

    Tim spluttered. Changed tack. “This is about stairs? I saw you pointing. Shouldn’t be too hard to install a ready-made since we already have the scramble stair. But …”

    “With Ruff the only user?” Bosley interrupted.

    They all looked at Ruff scrambling up the uneven bricks, plates and tiles rising to roof-level.

    “I don’t know how he doesn’t fall,” Drew said.

    “I think Nin helps him to not fall,” Tim said.

    “I want to see that, that ‘shouldn’t-be-too-hard’,” Drew said.

    “Fine,” Tim said. “I’ll do the ready-made, you do a …whatever. A thing with which we can with our best foot forward rise from a floor to the floor above.”

    “May the fastest man win the go-to-stairs moniker,” Bosley said. “The other one can be the freshwater supply guy.”

    Drew and Tim went away together to think through their options. “Because,” Drew said, “The water supply is at least as big, if not bigger, than a handful of stairs.”

    “Well, keep it under your hat,” Tim said. “But I’m better at walls and roofs than either of the other two.”

    Drew laughed. “Me? I’m better at numbers and figures.”

    Tim laughed too. “So let’s stay friendly. We’ll work at night. Keep the rest in the dark. I help you, you help me. Nin Wiz will help us both. Let’s do a kind of scramble-stair up to the half-floor …”

    “With a brown three-rung ladder to the bunk house?” Drew said. “That way we’ll save the yellow ladder for us mortals to get up to Nin Wiz’s abode.”

    “Nice,” Tim said. “Let’s now go locate the components without remarking on them and then knock off for the day.” He chortled. “Should keep everybody guessing.”

    “See you at midnight?” Drew said.

    “Make that 3 AM, when everybody is in their deepest sleep, and I’ll see you here.”

    They separated, prowled around and fixed the different components on their internal maps. Met at 3 AM. Worked. Installed the stairs with Nin’s help.

    Drew’s stair to the half floor.

    Tim, caught by daylight, and needing all kinds of help.

    Bosley studied the ready-made stair on its pedestal with him. “Why?” he said.

    “The windows?” Tim said. “Umm.”

    “Why the pedestal?” Bosley said. “And how do we get up onto the bottom step?”

    “Mmm, I don’t know yet,” Tim said. “I was thinking that we’d need stairs something like this to get to our cabin, which will probably end up being on the same level as bunkhouse and so …”

    “Tim, relax,” Bosley said. “I fully expect Drew to solve that problem. He’s probably already puzzling on it. I need you to start thinking about the freshwater supply.”

    “We’ll need to get the power on first,” Tim said.

    Lego: Bosley’s Builders, 11

    11. The Stand Off

    Jed was pretty happy with the floor they’d laid yesterday. At this rate they’d get the walls complete and happy faces when the hardware shop’s reps arrived later. And all it had needed was him jollying everyone else along.

    Bosley is back today, he thought. Here’s hoping he thinks having a foreman—yours truly—a good addition to his crew. It’ll set me up. He made his way toward where Boz beckoned him for his site report.

    “Hey, Boss,” Jed said. “We’ve made quite a bit of progress as you can see.” He waved at the hardware store’s floor and walls. “I was thinking we could start on the heavy vehicle garage next. Then by the end of the week, lift Jackie’s and my cabin on top of it.”

    “I should be having this discussion with you and Ms Sander,” Bosley said.

    Uh oh, Boz has quite the long face, Jed had time to think. “I’ve got nothing in common with her,” he said.

    “Sez you,” Bosley said. “What do you see around yourself?”

    Jed looked round. He didn’t see anything different, he said with a hand gesture and a shrug.

    “What does he see beyond himself?” Tim said. He was repairing Wizard Nin’s shack right there where Bosley organized Jed for a chin-wag. Two against one, was that fair?

    “What does he see other than himself,” Drew said, stepping into Jed’s face from the other direction.

    Would’ve been funny except Jed started to feel like they were ganging up on him.

    “Go at it, brother,” Bosley said cryptically.

    “It’s a done deal in my mind,” Drew stated. “Jackie owns the crane and she’s given us the go-ahead. Jed owns the truck and he can leave when he wants.”

    “You’ll take Jackie’s crane off my truck? No! No way!” Jed cried, suddenly seeing the plot. “What’s a truck by itself?”

    “Jed! Cheer up,” Dan said. “You’ll have a ton of options.”

    Jed groaned. “Not you too? You’re supposed to be my friend.”

    “I am your friend,” Dan said. “You and me with a truck each? Salvaging. You and the hardware store? Power storage when we get you fitted with a power module and they have a windmill operating in the channel. You and the community? Say we need a performance stage? You and the herders? They need their cabin took to their pylons? No mid-size crane is going to manage that. It’ll need incremental lifting with … “

    “No!” Jed said again. “I’m leaving! I knew it would come to this. We should never have come. You’re chasing me away!”

    He stomped to his and Jackie’s cabin, and threw his things together. I don’t believe it! I’m back to camping?

    The rest of them listened further and heard the truck door slam, and the truck engine tick over. Then Jed drove toward the track out.

    “Okay. That’s the crane gone,” Bosley said. “Have we still got that shadoof thing?”

    “I’m blank on what you’re talking about,” Tim said.

    “That’ll be a ditto for me,” Dan agreed.

    “I saw it yesterday,” Drew said. “We’ve got that and the conveyor belt still. We’ll manage.”

    “You hear something?” Tim said to Dan.

    “Yes. The hardware store’s runabout. Is it both of them?” Dan said.

    “It is, but Ms Bee is tying up the boat.”

    “I’m gone,” Dan said.

    “Ditto,” Tim said. “I’m meeting Trish for a cuppa. You should come along. She said we should start planning the canteen, since this hillock,” he stamped his boot. “Will likely take two slabs. And the canteen will probably take at least two cabins.”

    “Cowards,” Drew said. “Don’t plan too far ahead of the stair building. Or the materials for that matter.”

    “I bet Trish will want more arches,” Dan said. “Do you recall where you got them?”

    “What’s this about me and him?” Ms Sander said, pointing her chin at Jed ploughing across the mudflats. She looked thunderous.

    Bosley didn’t wilt. “Both you and Jed have unrealistic expectations,” he said. “Had a look around recently?”

    “Like lift your gaze to the world in general,” Drew said helpfully.

    “My supply lines are intact,” flashed Ms Sander. “My customer base is growing. My second- floor hasn’t even been begun yet, but we all know the hold-up there!”

    “I’ll say it again,” Drew said. “Had a look around recently?” He didn’t let her get a word in. He felt like something in him had snapped during the long lay-up. “Parts are what are missing! Our spreadsheet is like a mosaic of blanks!”

    Bosley frowned Ms Sander into silence.

    Drew continued. “Supply chains other than apparently yours are fragmented! These floods,” he indicated the swamp now surrounding them, “Are playing havoc with deliveries.”

    “Making do with what we have is the name of the new game,” Bosley said at Ms Bee arriving belatedly. “In other words, when I come to do your stairs, you will gracefully accept whatever color scheme I can manage!”

    Bee smiled winningly at him. “We will, Bosley,” she said. She arm-in-armed Ms Sander away with her. “Let’s think about our interiors, Sandy. We could book Julie & Juliette. I’m sure they’ll be able to come up with a scheme to complement Bosley’s.”

    Drew laughed. “You were supposed to melt just then.”

    Bosley flushed. “Yeah, right. Me and everybody else!”